Thank you. You guys are right.
However, I don’t like or value shool, anymore, and I never really liked doing my research. It’s just a job for me. It’s not something I want to make a career out of, which makes me wonder why I am still doing it.
I am looking for a way out. I could probably get into a much better school next year, and maybe I will like it more, but I’ve no idea. I’m not really sure what specialty to go into. I always liked spectroscopy. I thought working for LANL to study nuclear fusion with spectrometric analysis sounded like the coolest job ever, but chances are pretty low that I will get a job like that. I applied to the internship, but got nowhere. I’ve applied to other jobs in R&D that sounded a lot more interesting than what I’m doing now, but I’ve been denied by all of them.
The Navy sounded like a cool way to get out of academia and do something different, and maybe come back to R&D if I wanted to, maybe with a better chance of getting into something that I like. Unfortunately, I’ll be 35 by the time I get out, and I’m assuming that isn’t a good age to be looking for entry level jobs. Damn.
It still sounds cool to be a naval officer. If they accept me, I am more than likely going to do it. It still sounds more like an opportunity to me than a scam or a crappy deal. It would be totally different from what I’m doing now. I dread becoming a lab tech after all this work and education and get stuck injecting stuff into a tube and plotting data in excel for 60 hours a week at 30k a year. That’s my ultimate nightmare, even though it is a step up from what I am currently doing.