PM the user Graphic and ask your questions as that user seems to be willing to help as much as allowed and appropriate,...
and now you can stop shotgunning the forums with your post,...
my only relevant advise would be to keep as much of this conversation non-public as is possible,...
guard yourself and others from typing stupid stuff outloud as it were,...
I surmise you are stressing, the internet and everything you type on it is forever, take a deep breath and discipline yourself to be measured and prudent,...